I always kind of despised my dad, and for a long time, I didn’t even feel guilty about it.
He raised me alone after my mom ran off with a younger guy and erased us from her life like we were a bad memory she didn’t want anymore. No calls. No birthdays. No explanations. Just gone. From that moment on, it was just me and him in a small, aging apartment that always smelled faintly of detergent and cheap instant coffee.
Dad worked nonstop. Double shifts. Overtime whenever he could get it. Still, we barely scraped by. Our fridge was often half empty. My clothes came from clearance racks or hand-me-downs. Meanwhile, other kids at school showed up with new sneakers, new phones, new everything.
I tried not to care. But I did.
One afternoon, my friend came to school waving around a brand-new iPad, bragging loudly about how his dad had “surprised” him with it. Everyone crowded around him, impressed. I stood there smiling, but something inside me snapped.
That night, I went home boiling with anger. Dad was sitting at the kitchen table, hunched over some paperwork, his tie loosened, his face exhausted. I didn’t even say hello.
I just exploded.
“Look at other dads,” I shouted. “They can actually provide for their kids. You’re just a failure.”
The words hung in the air, ugly and irreversible.
Dad didn’t yell back. He didn’t defend himself. He just looked at me—really looked at me—and his eyes filled with tears he clearly didn’t want me to see. He nodded once, like he accepted the verdict, and quietly went into his room.
A week later, my phone rang in the middle of class.
Dad had suffered a heart attack at work.
At the hospital, I sat shaking in the hallway, replaying my words over and over. That’s when a man approached me. He introduced himself as my dad’s boss. He looked pale, shaken.
“You didn’t know?” he asked softly.
Know what?
He told me my dad had been saving every spare dollar for years—skipping lunches, wearing the same shoes until the soles split—because he wanted to build a college fund. He talked about me constantly. About my grades. About my dream of getting into Harvard.
“He wanted you to have a future he never had,” his boss said.
Suddenly, I saw everything clearly. His worn-out shoes. His old phone. The way he always said, “These are still fine—no need for new ones.”
I collapsed into a chair and sobbed like a child.
I had called him a failure.
But he was the one person who gave up everything—silently, completely—for me.