I was ten years old when my mother told me I was going to stay with “some nice people for a while.”
She packed my clothes into a plastic bag, kissed my forehead once, and left me at the foster office without looking back. Later, I learned the truth: she wanted a life without responsibility. Without me. She never called. Never asked about school. Never tried to find me again.
I grew up learning how to survive without expecting love. I bounced through foster homes, learned to cook early, learned not to cry when adults broke promises. By the time I aged out, I told myself I didn’t need her. I built a life anyway—college, a steady job, a husband, a son who made everything brighter.
Seventeen years passed.
Then, when I was twenty-seven, my phone rang.
Her voice was weak, almost unrecognizable. She was seriously ill, she said. She had left her second husband and was hiding from him. She had no money. No one else.
I don’t know why I said yes. Maybe I wanted answers. Maybe I wanted closure. Maybe some part of that ten-year-old girl was still waiting. I took her in, paid for her medical care, sat by her bed at night and listened to her breathe. She never explained why she left me. I didn’t ask.
Two weeks later, she died.
Her last words were barely a whisper. “Check my bag.”
At first, there was nothing—just old clothes and a worn wallet. Weeks passed. One night, I checked again and felt something stiff in the lining. I tore it open. Inside was a single key and an address.
The address led me to a poor street not far from my home. The flat was tiny—one room, dim light, a narrow bed. When I stepped inside, my blood ran cold.
The walls were covered in photographs of me.
Me as a child. Me at graduation. Me on my wedding day. Me holding my son.
She had been watching my life from a distance.
On the bed lay a handwritten letter.
“My darling daughter,” it began. “I never came to you because I truly believed you were better off without me. I was broke, uneducated, and I made the wrong choices. I stayed away because I thought love meant not ruining your life. But I couldn’t stay away completely. So I stayed nearby. Quietly. Just to see you grow.”
She wrote that she was proud of me. That she hoped one day I might forgive her.
That little flat had been her refuge—her secret life. Now it’s mine, too.
I wish she hadn’t been so afraid. I would have accepted her. Still, I’m grateful I took her in at the end. Those two weeks are the memories I’ll carry with me—soft, complicated, and real—always.